I’M SO SICK - and tired of being that girl who is tired of being the girl that guys want to hang out with but not be with I’ve Been moping around for the past couple weeks wondering what was wrong with me well I knew what was up, I got dumped; yes dump like almost a month ago but this time it was my fault – don’t ask why cuz I’m still trying to figure the crap out. i want slow whats so wrong with making out must you want to be in me. Me and my relation amoureuse saboté mentality. Sarah (the one who still loves Gerald (MCR) sent me random pictures and that shit made my day –A rare diamond who can think of others more than herself, I heart that crazzi girl.

YO TO THE YO - Yesterday was Fathers Day as you know; wish my dad a happy daddy day and everyone else who are dads and most importantly the double role moms. I thank all those who wish me a happy father’s day since I’m a single parent playing double roles. Well I took pictures of Nathan since he lost so much weight and the pictures came out really well as it should since I am so good with a digital.

=THEN=

QUEST TO ABSOLUTE LAZINESS - I watch Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince (again) slightly upset that they couldn’t add just a little bit more from the book. Reconnect with my inner vampirisms and watch True Blood (Jesus I <3 you Eric) and watch SyFy “The Phantom” and very impress with their update version. It also helps that Kit Walker is a cutie… CHILD DEVELOPMENT IS WONDEROUS – I went through the whole day determine to being super lazy, randomizing, alphabetizing my cd collection yet again, child developing my daughter mind by teaching her the words to Jason Derulo “Ridin’ Solo”
‘I'm putting on my shades to cover up my eyes,I'm jumping' in my ride; I'm heading out tonight,I'm solo, I'm riding solo, I'm riding solo, I'm riding solo, solo.I'm feeling like a star, you can't stop my shine; I'm loving cloud nine, my head's in the sky.I'm solo, I'm riding solo, I’m riding solo, I'm riding solo, solo’
I then supervise my niece as she made one excellent batch of brownies, and unbeknownst to me Maddie draw pretty scribbles on my shoulder and legs I think that was

=WHEN=

I DAYDREAM - Trust me R4$* kiss need to be remembered not for how it play out but cuz it was soft. It is that kind of kiss you want to get and wish you had. The date was pleasant I remember that- I knew what he was wearing, and what he was saying but Christ that kiss was amazing.

=BUT=

CHECK THIS OUT – Friday night I got my mind busy at “Eve” and got so booze up walking in at about 4amish with a vicious hangover the same morning but I was up at 8 the minute Maddie got up and my mind was F-O-C-U-S on her for the whole day despite the headache. It was hell but I know my daughter come first but you’ll be so proud of me cuz on Saturday I was DD and act right- thumbs up for me. El Fuerte call me Saturday night cuz I was feeling like crap emotionally Got into a Text chat with the smart ass follow by a phone call to boost my morale’ (high five man) you see the shit he just now comment response to my FB update “I am cooler than you ell oh ell” haha what a dork. Tweeting and updating my profile on FB like its second nature… Actually it is second nature considering you can practically update so conveniently from your cell…

=SURPRISE=

OH HEY - Sara sent a picture of her and her friend Hope at Playboy for there 30th birthday to me last night and I thought why is she sending me that. I don’t even like her friend Hope (and I’m rolling my eye roll here but God is love- God is love so hugs for everyone; oh shit I’m rolling my eyes again – I’m going to hell **giggle** - why am I giggling I don’t wanna go to hell its to hot and I’m not sure I want the Devil hot sac swigging in front of my face [that is what I see when I think of hell, the devil and his hot nutsac-ugh]) oh right Sara did text me Friday night – the text look like it was in code she was probably bored but I wasn’t too sure since I was looking for something to wear that evening and I need to buy red shoes; at least 3 inches which I did not find… Happy 30th.

HOT - Jonathon been texting me quite a bit lately and I love it, but its a shame really he lives in Washington (state) And not in Vegas.

FRIENSHIP- I’m thinking about Matt but rightly so and now I want to text Matt so dam bad but I’m still mad at him for getting a girlfriend < - -- that is so bad of me to say but I feel like one of the greatest friend in my whole life has gone and left me to commit to a relationship and you know when you get in a relationship you forget about your friends – its natural its part of life– let me tell you when he told me he got a girlfriend I swore someone drop a bomb on me and all me, just scatter all over the place.
I should call or text him…