Madison --- The Almost That Really Happened

It was during the Napa valley 09/07 trip where we both had some seriously good times. Amazing bottle of wine two bodies entwined then a few months’ later double pink lines.
Hahahaha isn’t that something

… Later I heard a heartbeat I fell instantly in luv I meet her for the first time during the ultra N couldn’t wait to hold her but it wasn't too long...

Now here we are five months later; 05-08, look at me, us, smelling her hair, humming to her N rubbing her back.

N here she is 8 months, My love, My life, My daughter Madison

Almost Ready to Face the World

**mumble grumble N smile**
I tell you this, what the hell happened to me…

Where did I go and why haven't I arrived yet?
Hell, what happened to that Independent girl? What happened damnit to that kind of me that wants but don't need?
I feel so confused but then again I'm not. I feel so unsure. I was once smitten i was once confident.
I could bullshit a bullshitter because I was once one too. It’s a lot of work being this emotional.
I give myself the end of the week to snap out of this feeling.

Almost Something 'bout Long Distance

(for all those in long distance relationships)

To fly somewhere without wings, possibly…

To take a chance on prospect probability and giving love openly with unspoken words from afar.

To touching air and walking on mindless euphoria just to crash and explode on uncompromised honesty.

To faultless hearts trapped because of unforgiving distance and time.

To the best and of all those worse… I wait for you.