Just Me: 2010

8.23.2010

Current things that is bothering me right now…

I’m in a new relationship and I’M so upset and jealous with my significant other for being with there last girlfriend. I’m serious – I wanna bop him across the head and go WTF were you thinking. I feel like she took the joy out of him and what I have is the remnant of just a piece of him. I know he still look her up. How can he say all these pretty things to me and do that behind my back and think I’m not going to find out.

Sarah (R) is pregnant and I am so happy but yet I can’t help but feel I’ve lost a friend. I mean who can I talk twisted with regarding everyday woman bodily functions life and have him/her understand. Seriously I can’t just say Panty Vietnam or I want to stab at my ovaries to just anyone and think they understand.

I am slightly bothered by the way things are between me and my sister Char right now, we got very verbal and we got into each other face and in my head I was thinking God please tell her to step back or I’m going to step her off me. Well God didn’t listen and I pushed her. I didn’t care then but I feel just awful I still feel awful. I know things will never be the same tween Char and I.

I am so fukkn pissed that I am not going to see AFI next weekend – I cried a river. That show was a very big deal for me and I think no one seem to understand how affected I am by it.

I am very bothered with my happiness. Seriously I am happy yet I am very unhappy and it is a lot of work to be in pursuit of this happiness. Why can’t it just show up for me when I need it?

8.13.2010

Been somewhat busy you know…
Met someone, working, living my life in the most interesting and insanely random way, got creative in the bedroom, you know moved - well I moved, No, we moved and it was hell – moving in 100 degree weather but both Ray and I been a real sport about it. Excellent team player - he did most of the work and suffered later.
Madison almost tripped me going down the stairs – its funny how I dropped the popsicles and saved my phone. I mean seriously who cares if I broke a bone or two as long as the phone didn’t fall apart no worries right; everything is all good.

oh look a picture of my daughter playing in the talcum powder on my bed -------------------->

7.17.2010

Ray

Ray was walkiNg in Just as i look up N it seem so weird to see him lookiNg like a 'shadow'

6.30.2010

Guess What!

Guess where I was Last Night!

Took my niece to the screening of the Last Airbender; now if you are one intense fan like myself you accept minimal changes from the anime then you'll enjoy it. Everyone in general would enjoy this movie. Especially the water and fire nation bending.

This is the prize i won (excludiNg poster) for namiNg kind of animal Appa is. A (flying) Bison

6.21.2010

I’M SO SICK - and tired of being that girl who is tired of being the girl that guys want to hang out with but not be with I’ve Been moping around for the past couple weeks wondering what was wrong with me well I knew what was up, I got dumped; yes dump like almost a month ago but this time it was my fault – don’t ask why cuz I’m still trying to figure the crap out. i want slow whats so wrong with making out must you want to be in me. Me and my relation amoureuse saboté mentality. Sarah (the one who still loves Gerald (MCR) sent me random pictures and that shit made my day –A rare diamond who can think of others more than herself, I heart that crazzi girl.

YO TO THE YO - Yesterday was Fathers Day as you know; wish my dad a happy daddy day and everyone else who are dads and most importantly the double role moms. I thank all those who wish me a happy father’s day since I’m a single parent playing double roles. Well I took pictures of Nathan since he lost so much weight and the pictures came out really well as it should since I am so good with a digital.

=THEN=

QUEST TO ABSOLUTE LAZINESS - I watch Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince (again) slightly upset that they couldn’t add just a little bit more from the book. Reconnect with my inner vampirisms and watch True Blood (Jesus I <3 you Eric) and watch SyFy “The Phantom” and very impress with their update version. It also helps that Kit Walker is a cutie… CHILD DEVELOPMENT IS WONDEROUS – I went through the whole day determine to being super lazy, randomizing, alphabetizing my cd collection yet again, child developing my daughter mind by teaching her the words to Jason Derulo “Ridin’ Solo”
‘I'm putting on my shades to cover up my eyes,I'm jumping' in my ride; I'm heading out tonight,I'm solo, I'm riding solo, I'm riding solo, I'm riding solo, solo.I'm feeling like a star, you can't stop my shine; I'm loving cloud nine, my head's in the sky.I'm solo, I'm riding solo, I’m riding solo, I'm riding solo, solo’
I then supervise my niece as she made one excellent batch of brownies, and unbeknownst to me Maddie draw pretty scribbles on my shoulder and legs I think that was

=WHEN=

I DAYDREAM - Trust me R4$* kiss need to be remembered not for how it play out but cuz it was soft. It is that kind of kiss you want to get and wish you had. The date was pleasant I remember that- I knew what he was wearing, and what he was saying but Christ that kiss was amazing.

=BUT=

CHECK THIS OUT – Friday night I got my mind busy at “Eve” and got so booze up walking in at about 4amish with a vicious hangover the same morning but I was up at 8 the minute Maddie got up and my mind was F-O-C-U-S on her for the whole day despite the headache. It was hell but I know my daughter come first but you’ll be so proud of me cuz on Saturday I was DD and act right- thumbs up for me. El Fuerte call me Saturday night cuz I was feeling like crap emotionally Got into a Text chat with the smart ass follow by a phone call to boost my morale’ (high five man) you see the shit he just now comment response to my FB update “I am cooler than you ell oh ell” haha what a dork. Tweeting and updating my profile on FB like its second nature… Actually it is second nature considering you can practically update so conveniently from your cell…

=SURPRISE=

OH HEY - Sara sent a picture of her and her friend Hope at Playboy for there 30th birthday to me last night and I thought why is she sending me that. I don’t even like her friend Hope (and I’m rolling my eye roll here but God is love- God is love so hugs for everyone; oh shit I’m rolling my eyes again – I’m going to hell **giggle** - why am I giggling I don’t wanna go to hell its to hot and I’m not sure I want the Devil hot sac swigging in front of my face [that is what I see when I think of hell, the devil and his hot nutsac-ugh]) oh right Sara did text me Friday night – the text look like it was in code she was probably bored but I wasn’t too sure since I was looking for something to wear that evening and I need to buy red shoes; at least 3 inches which I did not find… Happy 30th.

HOT - Jonathon been texting me quite a bit lately and I love it, but its a shame really he lives in Washington (state) And not in Vegas.

FRIENSHIP- I’m thinking about Matt but rightly so and now I want to text Matt so dam bad but I’m still mad at him for getting a girlfriend < - -- that is so bad of me to say but I feel like one of the greatest friend in my whole life has gone and left me to commit to a relationship and you know when you get in a relationship you forget about your friends – its natural its part of life– let me tell you when he told me he got a girlfriend I swore someone drop a bomb on me and all me, just scatter all over the place.
I should call or text him…

5.07.2010

Meeting each other halfway…

I’m not sure if I could… For months now I wanted a relationship and now that I may be able too I am not sure that I want too. I ask him to have a little patience with me while I toss this decision in my head around and he said okay. Am I being selfish to his needs for asking this of him; I want him in my life but I am afraid that the spice will fizzle and either him or I; egad, both of us happen to get bored. Can I commit and still have fun?

4.20.2010

He

He said ''POSITIVE OUTLOOK IS ATTRACTIVE''...
Sounds like a bunch of words he put together to appease the restless soul in me. Did it work? No, but i'm not inquiring as much

4.15.2010

Santa baby

Merry Christmas :)

4.14.2010

The Morning after Morning after Pill Re-Impregnates Guilt-Ridden Women

I cannot stop laughing at this – if you don’t get it - well your sense of humor is a bit runny but If you have seen the commercial to spark this joke from TheOnion and you got it then High5 for you!

Long leaf infused!

I am an avid tea drinker. so when Lipton made these long leaf infused pyramid tea bags I bought several boxes. The two in the photo are my favorite. Go get some!

4.01.2010

CANDID SHOT!

My daughter was playing with my camera and she took this - i luv it!

I was playing around with my camera and i took this of my daughter. BEAUTIFUL!

3.09.2010

A Satirical moment for parents

I know the title really doesn’t speak for itself but can you imagine if a group of parent just come together and talk the everyday lives of being a parent…

I swear I have some interesting moment’s one being Madison toy scaring the living shit out of you.
Really early Monday morning my eyes unable to focus since my daughter gave me her pink eye I blindly walked to the bathroom so I can put some drops in my eye where I stepped on something and I felt it move over my feet; I let out a bloodcurdling scream, waking Madison up from your deep sleep and she begin to cry. Panic overwhelm the fright; I’m trying to get to the bathroom with my arms outstretch like I’m a 1940 horror zombie banging my knee on my way.
Once I got the drops it in and I was able to focus I realize I stepped over Madison bunny rabbit. Christ; a plush rabbit how embarrassing. I can laugh about it now but it wasn’t so funny then. - eMMe