© Almost Called You

Temptation Realized but Maintained:

She have bitten her fingernails to the skin, randomly typing words on her keyboard, a bit of drumed fingers on the desk, a few pacing, tapping of her bare feet on the tile floor and humming a made up song all for the reason of NOT doing something she want to do so desperately.
Trying to keep her mind from wondering what you and your kids are up too and what you have planned for the day.
Trying to preoccupy her time by doing things she don't want to do; like work on a really shitty Wednesday morning as she listen to 'synth' music all in the hope that she will not pick up her cellphone, and dial your telephone number by heart.
She have to call; she want to hear your voice - she need to hear your voice.
See it's the want/need game again playing tricks on her.
Oh my bloody god, thirteen more hours to go.