ALMOST SPEECHLESS COMPLETLY EXCITED!!!

LOOK!

One of many thing thats makes me smile!! Here i was moping over a guy then I find out that my all time favorite band Afi were in the O.C. SIGNING there new cd "Crash Love"!!!

I could not go -but a friend who don't really know the music of AFI but is aware of my love and adoration to the band, there music and to Jade BOUGHT the cd to get a pass came back next day wait fer hours to have all 4 bandmates sign cd for me AND he even had jade tell me hi. : ))

that is true friendship - seriously he did not have to do it!!! he said he likes to see people happy - this man is way to good for the human society that have become slightly jaded but friends like that can peg you down and make you see true kindness in the world we live in so Chatsalot (d4v3) Thank you!! you are totally genuine!!

http://img202.imageshack.us/flvplayer.swf?f=Mjade

Almost Ask Why

"I" gave this guy myself so openly since May. It was alll about S78V8 since May!!! And he just completely broke my heart. Emotionally involved since May and here "I" am; cry-N. OMG "I" am cry-N over a man again - "I" am so fukkn Lame!

"I" told myself "don’t let your guard down eMMe", and you know what I did – "I" let my freakN guard down. , "I" can’t even tell my own family how "I" feel I can't imagine even telling my most intimate friends how "I" feel, "I" can’t even remotely express myself so intimately like that – "I" can’t speak it – this is my personal and private pain.

"I" look up to the sky and i ask god why? why did i let this happen to me again. Not only am "I" depressed over all this but "I" feel lost and confused and "I" must rebuild this fortress around my heart, YET AGAIN!

My Fangbang (TRUE BLOOD) Obsession

A few thing I noticed about me and True Blood:

The phones are off when True Blood is on

I am on the HBO True Blood site every dam minute

I am reading up on the Sookie Stackhouse books

I swear the surrealism of the two world is true -- Vampires (and others) do walk among us

I have more True Blood memorabilia than Twilight

I am so Team Eric than Bill

I think AFI should do a song for the show

I am contemplating getting fang bites on my neck

I Immediately post comments, theories and ''told you so'' on message board

I would Downloading the music at the end credit because they always change

I have zazzled my own Fangbanger shirt

I swear I would fangbang if a Vamp and his lover propositioned me

I would have heated debate on which of me would look more vampirism-ish before baby eMMe or now eMMe

OMG I just purchased yet another True Blood item from the HBO show

http://www.hbo.com/trueblood/season2/

http://store.hbo.com/index.php?v=hbo_shows_true-blood&ecid=PRF-TV2-800134&PA=PRF-TV2-800134

NOAH'S ARK?

In case vegas flood. Looks a bit unreliable to me ahahahaha

Right now, I'm on my Ipod, well, Almost this very second

A while ago, I was humming the song “Help me please” by Spectrum/Sonic Boom, and I looked all over the Internet for the song – I asked a friend who provides songs for a mobile site to see if he could locate the song.
Well, the guy found the song and the minute I heard the song, it was like old times: just graduated from high school, stuck between what I wanted to do and where I wanted to go.

I went ahead and purchased the cd, and then I thought "Why stop here?" I went ahead and downloaded a few more ...

The single “We Own the Sky” by M-83 from Saturdays=Youth


I purchased Jagged by Gary Numan. I must say this is some compelling stuff coming from the guy who gave us "Cars."
"In a Dark Place" is intense and very serious.


And, my current favorite, "Owl City." Intensely magnetic.
You have got to listen to "I’ll Meet You There” and “West Coast Friendship.”

CRASH LOVE - SEPT 29th, 2009

It has been officially confirmed!!!

AFI "CRASH LOVE" Release date is September 29th, 2009

I! AM! SO! EFFIN! HAPPY! :]

WHY R PPL ODD-DUMB

Check out this group txt:

Fw:
Fr:CodeName-M.E[To:ringerz] Ok this is way pst bedtime N i totally cock block long e’nuff. Hehehe Chats will find it Wicked NITE ALL!
Fr:Winterangel[To:ringerz] O wow guess I read that wrong M.E has a cock? Hmmm thought she be a female. Lol o well my bad again

**sigh N roll eyes** Do you know that people are always trying to bring people down when they are just so miserable ( I would know I was/is/could be that way *raise brow* does this make me a hypocrite) so I decided to respond to the group txt from last night. The trouble that I had was at which level I needed to respond at. Clearly I chose the more dignified level – see for yourself

I am not going to get involved in your high school musical theater performance whatever b.s., leave the glee for the professionals. I graduated the 12th grade – do I seriously want to “go” back there.

How bout keeping your infantile comments to yourself because i do not need unconstructive energy today/tomorrow/whenever and however. Since you don’t know me at all why do you try to upset/slight me, I think you have some unresolved issues that need some addressing.
You know we’ve been here before – really do you honestly want to go back there again **yawn yawn yawn** Look if you have nothing nice to say at all, keep it to your damn self! That way society doesn’t have to hear either one of us.

Peace and Many Blessings!
One Luv

better than almost; This is PERFECT

It's pics like this that makes me want another child... Hmmm that moment is gone but all the same. JUST perfectly cuteSara son Jordin N my daughter Madison

Optical illusion

Flip da pic upside down & cover her head & da hand with da glass w/ ur finger and wat do u c? If u get it pass it on! Lol!Can you see it?

The Fear of Almost BeiN Found

Look, a pic taken from under the desk. I bailed on the paperwork due to lack of concentrationHere i am with the paperwork N i'm feeliN Xtremly overwhelmed N sad at the fact that i'm at the office doiN work junk on a SATURDAY N yet i am still bothered by the argument me N Char had lss night. A three day headache, depression, in need of a hug, a guy i can't touch cuz we in two different deserts, how i'm to provide fer me N Mine me on jss my income N i tried to tell her this N she jss fuckn laugh N then turned it so that she is the victim in all this cuz she has a kid too, a ten yr ole, how she works two jobs... Blah blah blah. N LET ME not get started on a botched theraputic session wit Mom. She thought it was funny. The minute Char or Carina call with there drama, she listens but when i call its a fukn joke. That upset N hurt me even more. That was the 3rd time i cried this week. I despise my tears.

Almost divine;perfect bond of sisterhood

Omfg! This is Sarah N her sister taint. It is just effin awesome. I got it the minute she sent it the ink work says 'sisstars' wit the star on top. I luv it N so effin jealli. I want a sister type taint as well. Maybe when carina comes out in two weeks we thre N brain fuse fer a minute N come up wit somethiN viciously delicious.
This is one of my sisters (she's baby number 8 of 9 kids - i'm number 7) i took dis pic while the sun was blindiN my eyes so i have to vert my eyes over. We were super boozy that day (3 margharitas wit friends ) N i kept thinkN why did i wore what i wore yet now i can't remember what i was weariN. It was super tatas expose' N suggest a lewdish thought behavior. Which made me also wonder what my friends, to whom my sister met fer the first time, thought as well.but sis these friends happen to be guys that thought of there mind i will never know, but i could ask.

Boot / Feet/ Taints of a Random

Jss so weird how i purchased my Vans Warped Tour 09 tickets online N it jss so happen I am weariN Vans sneakers today. Don't get me wrong I'm a total heels grl but sometimez u can't kick it rite witout the right shoes.

Now aint Stitch Doll boots bitchN. They're ger early bday presents (she's June 19th). Now i can walk In any shoes, yes any shoes but in boots, my calf are just aint amp up enough. Boots jst won't stay on rite or look rite. **Whisper** actually i fukn tripped once in a pair of boots. I got mad at them fer embarrassiN me but it really was the booze **blush** he he he

Now these R my feet in heelz. Those right there R three inches N yes, i can walk in them like a pro but the minute... K now what u really need to focus on is the fact that dis shot look ultra cool in black N white

Let us focus on the fact dat man hair on legs is quite normal but the minute we see hair on a woman legz fer i.e. its a shudder... That's okay I am always shaviN or waxiN or creamiN some part of my body part. U won't see hair on me Xcept on my head.This is jss so perfect fer the topic of random verbiage. I ask Jeff to send me a pic of his leg N he did. The man is was so cool then but today he aint.

Aim stitch Taint. It hurtz N itched badly. I totally feel fer cuz a cpl weeks later i got tainted. I was talkN wit Freak His real name is da same name as my X N jss thiinkN bout my X gives me a headache. So i'm talkN to Freak N he was like 'emme if i wasn't married... I was Freak please, this is the same guy who i always go to get tainted. He's da same guy who pierced my hood N ears N brow

Of all the taints i got this one hurts the most, Freak was jss conversiN as Normal N i was tryN to concentrate on his wordz But i kept thinkN pain da pain imma faint, but i didn't. When he said done i sighIed viciously then got all Xcited. Freak is the same guy who also did my AFI taint. .i heart my taint artist.

Finally!!! the best fer last. Now dis is where i say ' i wish i thgt of that' Are these jss the shit or what. I was jss googliN (godz i heart to google) pics of AFI/JADE/BLAQK AUDIO n dis pic came up. Whomever it was dat did this is instant genius N mastermind N will one day rule the world. K so the rule da world part was a bit dramatic but u knw what i mean. <3>

The almost Request

I took this hazy pic Cuz carmine was goiN why u always takiN a pic on N angle wit the camera in the air. So this fer him. It it [un]perfect N its nearly what he wanted so ha!

The Almost Orb

The paper weight i got for my desk,so cool

For Matt - Just because He is so Gel

Yo M.K.! (Novemenber 08)

We should get sweet ass lookN jerseys CuZ we'd make one hell of a gr8t yet fukked up team But Mine would look betta than Urs CuZ I got amaziN rackz N U don't!! (ahahahahaha)

N just because cuZ we got Vegas by the neck and other body parts doesn't mean anything, but this state should be jealous CuZ we tore the mudda up - SHIT, we indeed got Vegas.

Good Times!

Madison --- The Almost That Really Happened

It was during the Napa valley 09/07 trip where we both had some seriously good times. Amazing bottle of wine two bodies entwined then a few months’ later double pink lines.
Hahahaha isn’t that something

… Later I heard a heartbeat I fell instantly in luv I meet her for the first time during the ultra N couldn’t wait to hold her but it wasn't too long...

Now here we are five months later; 05-08, look at me, us, smelling her hair, humming to her N rubbing her back.

N here she is 8 months, My love, My life, My daughter Madison

Almost Ready to Face the World

**mumble grumble N smile**
I tell you this, what the hell happened to me…

Where did I go and why haven't I arrived yet?
Hell, what happened to that Independent girl? What happened damnit to that kind of me that wants but don't need?
I feel so confused but then again I'm not. I feel so unsure. I was once smitten i was once confident.
I could bullshit a bullshitter because I was once one too. It’s a lot of work being this emotional.
I give myself the end of the week to snap out of this feeling.

Almost Something 'bout Long Distance

(for all those in long distance relationships)

To fly somewhere without wings, possibly…

To take a chance on prospect probability and giving love openly with unspoken words from afar.

To touching air and walking on mindless euphoria just to crash and explode on uncompromised honesty.

To faultless hearts trapped because of unforgiving distance and time.

To the best and of all those worse… I wait for you.